Every day we learn something new this weekend I learned something critical though .
Alcohol does not solve anything and can actually make things worse depending on your circumstances..
Don't drink when your lonely ,sad, mad, battling with emotions or just plain old confuse cause alcohol just heightens these feelings
Don't drink while your p.m.s-ing . If you must drink make sure you have someone with you that is sober enough to stop you from doing stupidity's (things you will regret the next day ). Don't drink while drunk ! and if you still decide to do it anyways hide your phone where YOU can not find it ! so you don't end up calling people and telling them things you don't remember the next day .UGH !!!!
I'm a firm believer that words are a powerful thing and that once you say them you cant take them back
so I have an automatic filter that I like to call " A Heart" which i hope was working when I was making the phone calls I made yesterday . they say you say what you feel when your drunk . I believed it all until Saturday now I'm not to sure ?: / how can i tell you i meant something I don't remember saying . HMMMM
My birthday was well a batch of mixed emotions , I went to my sisters best friends house she did an 80s party and was still celebrating Her Birthday. I had nothing else to do,my sister told me i should go . she was away in a different state. I love the 80's theme so i went ,it was nice. Met new people did a lot of interacting dancing took pictures helped those that where more enibreated than me. 12:00am hit I got a cupcake with a candle a birthday song and a birthday wish . at the moment all was pretty much going well for me
untill alcohol clouded my already phogy, glumy mind and i started thinking about my mom about my aunt about my friend those that passed away ,those that moved far away and those that just didt make it for whatever reasons, all the people i wish could of been there on what was suppose to be my special day and yet there i was sitting in this extraordinarily beutifull house with a huge balcony nice tile flooring beautiful marbel counter tops a chandelier that hung over the very beautiful dining room table with somebody's elses friends somebody else family somebody else Birthday party
that's when the jello shots kicked in and the sangria and whatever else I was drinking !!! When i felt reality hit me and realized I was really all alone !! So i went downstairs to sit on the porch so that no one can see the tears that where rolling down my eyes .and took out the only thing i really had my phone . After that well I really don't know .
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